Honestly, right now I want you in my life. I don’t know if I’ll say the same in a years time or even in a week, but right now I like you and I want you to share in my life at least for a while. We can see where things go. The thought of the future as far as we’re concerned scares me the most. On the one hand the thought that things will disintegrate scares me because I don’t want to get hurt again. On the other, the thought that things might work out scares me just as much if not more. I’m trying to jump this hurdle into the unknown scary world of ‘us’ and I’m sorry it’s taking me a while to get there but you should at least know that I like you enough to actually push myself to make that leap, because as scary as those two options seem, the thought of not taking that leap and finding out where it leads is the scariest of all.
After spending so long actively not wanting a relationship it’s kind of weird to now want that with someone. Im so used to telling myself I dont want it but now I say that then turn around and say but hey I would with this guy. Then I think about it again without him in the picture and go no way do I want a relationship yet. Frustration.
BBC’s Top 100 Book List (I’ve read 24)
1 Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen [x]
2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien []
3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte []
4 Harry Potter series - JK Rowling[x]
5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee []
6 The Bible []
7 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte[]
8 Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell []
9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman[x]
10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens [x]
11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott [x]
12 Tess of the D’Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy []
13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller []
14 Complete Works of Shakespeare []
15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier []
16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien []
17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulk []
18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger []
19 The Time Traveler’s Wife - Audrey Niffenegger [x]
20 Middlemarch - George Eliot []
21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell []
22 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald []
23 Bleak House - Charles Dickens []
24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy []
25 The Hitch Hiker’s Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams []
27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky []
28 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck []
29 Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll [x]
30 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame [x]
31 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy [ ]
32 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens [ ]
33 Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis [x]
34 Emma - Jane Austen [x]
35 Persuasion - Jane Austen [ ]
36 The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis [x]
37 The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini [ ]
38 Captain Corelli’s Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres []
39 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden [ ]
40 Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne [x]
41 Animal Farm - George Orwell [x]
42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown [ ]
43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez [ ]
44 A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving [ ]
45 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins []
46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery [x]
47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy [ ]
48 The Handmaid’s Tale - Margaret Atwood [ ]
49 Lord of the Flies - William Golding [x]
50 Atonement - Ian McEwan [ ]
51 Life of Pi - Yann Martel [ ]
52 Dune - Frank Herbert [ ]
53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons [ ]
54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen [ ]
55 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth [ ]
56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon []
57 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens [ ]
58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley [x]
59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night - Mark Haddon [ ]
60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez [ ]
61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck []
62 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov [ ]
63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt [ ]
64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold [x]
65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas [ ]
66 On The Road - Jack Kerouac [ ]
67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy [ ]
69 Midnight’s Children - Salman Rushdie []
70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville [ ]
71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens [x]
72 Dracula - Bram Stoker [ ]
73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett [x]
74 Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson [ ]
75 Ulysses - James Joyce [ ]
76 The Inferno – Dante [ ]
77 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome [ ]
78 Germinal - Emile Zola [ ]
79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray [ ]
80 Possession - AS Byatt [ ]
81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens [x]
82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell [ ]
83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker [ ]
84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro [ ]
85 Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert [ ]
86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry [ ]
87 Charlotte’s Web - EB White [x]
88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom [x]
89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle [x]
90 The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton [x]
91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad []
92 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery [ ]
93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks [ ]
94 Watership Down - Richard Adams [ ]
95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole [ ]
96 A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute [ ]
97 The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas [ ]
98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare []
99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl [x]
100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo [ ]
(via staypozitive)
While this is almost ridiculously cliche I’m also not sure I could think of anything cuter. Especially coming from someone who doesnt speak Italian.
Kinda stoked I’ve even gotten this far. Nothing like realising your thighs are actually gaining muscle to motivate you to keep going though. Bring on day 30!!
After all my stressing about relationships always ending sooner or later I suddenly flipped that around and realised if I managed to stay in what was relitively a shit one for eight months and then continued hoping and fighting for it along with the other person (more or less) for another year after that, then who knows with the right person. There’s no way we should have lasted even a few months together but we both faught for what we thought we wanted even though we were miserable, so if its a relationship that works and makes you happy most of the time then imagine how hard you could both be willing to fight for it then….
You want my honest opinion?
You need to learn to love yourself. I don’t mean in a conceited, stuck up way, but in a I don’t need to screw anything that walks past with a pulse sorta way. You might think you’re desirable because you can get a different girl in bed every week. I’m telling you it’s not only undesirable it’s repulsive.
Learn some self respect and get some standards.
More people need to understand this.
(Source: underscorecmontano, via struckdown-butnotdestroyed)
